There has been two months that have gone by since I last wrote: To the day. I could speak for hours about the chaos and seemingly endless craziness about our relationship and romance. A lot of which I can't even wrap my head around most of the time.
This will be short.
I just spent a majority of my day and time rewatching the last season of 'The Office.' In which the solid relationship of the main two protagonists was tested and written beautifully. And I was reminded, the reason I love watching that show isn't just for the humor, it's because it inspires me, and gives me hope… to dream… to love… and to believe in romance.
This verse has been running through my head all day.
Proverbs 18:22 says. "He who finds a wife finds a good thing and obtains favor from the LORD."
I can't exactly call you my wife, but you are the only prospect I see, and I will continually put all my preverbal "eggs into this basket." And PRAY TO GOD that He grants me the luxury of ending up with you. But all day long, and yesterday, and the day before... I have been thinking about the favor and blessing that you have been in my life. ...Endless amounts of blessing and encouragement, and making up for every sad and fearful thing that this dying planet could throw at a man. You have, and continue to make up for them all.
Proverbs 18:22 says. "He who finds a wife finds a good thing and obtains favor from the LORD."
I can't exactly call you my wife, but you are the only prospect I see, and I will continually put all my preverbal "eggs into this basket." And PRAY TO GOD that He grants me the luxury of ending up with you. But all day long, and yesterday, and the day before... I have been thinking about the favor and blessing that you have been in my life. ...Endless amounts of blessing and encouragement, and making up for every sad and fearful thing that this dying planet could throw at a man. You have, and continue to make up for them all.
Despite whatever circumstances come our way, I always… ALWAYS want to romance you and live in the reality that we can produce and make our life worth living. Something that amounts to our ideals and meets our expectations. I know I will fail, but I can promise you, with God's help, I will always continue to try to see our dreams become reality on this earth. I want to live this life properly, with no regrets, and living to the extent of our imaginations.
See, you have no idea, (maybe somewhat) of how much you are everything I have ever wanted. I do not exaggerate when I say you daily remind me of the person I have dreamt of, my whole life. It's as if I have known you for a long time, and the last four months have just been me in a constant state of shock and awe as I watch you exist and thank our Lord for the gift He has brought to me. All this to say, I feel like my feelings and my head, are still catching up to the amazingness that is before me, which is you.
In the second to last episode of 'The Office,' Jim said this…
"No matter what happens, you've got to forget about all the other stuff, you've got to forget about logic, and fear and doubt, you've just got to do everything you can to get to the one woman who's going to make all of this worth it, …at the end of the day, you gotta jump."
I want to jump with you, Allyson.
Happy 4 Months.
I love you dearly.
Yours,
Steven
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